My head hurts and I can't figure out Lady Madonna. Mike said to play it an octive higher than the sheat says, and I figured, ''no problem I can totally handle that.'' But it's alot harder than I thought. Ugh.

skanky-sluty-summer-fun

Magnolian fest was boring and tiny, and I felt thirdwheel-a-licious since Jon couldn't come.(It was Mad, Evan, and I) We walked around in this cool old neighborhood for a while. My legs are a little sore(1. I should work out more. 2. I should have been wearing better shoes.) but I think I burned alot of fat so that's good.(I really don't care about being ''skinny'' I just want to be fit)

This morning, I some how bit my uperlip when I triped on the stairs.(Ariel needs to learn how to walk!) So now it feel really weird when I talk. Like there's this patch on the inside of my uperlip that is missing a bunch of skin, it didn't bleed or any thing, it's just raw and a little....tingley.

Oh god, today at the fest, I was wearing this little mini skirt right? And I wasn't really paying attention to where I was walking and I triped on this big crack in the sidewalk, and the guy behind me totally saw my underwear. Good thing I was actually wearing them! Can you imagine how embarasing that would have been if I decided to go comando? Plus, at Mad's house when I was walking up the stairs Mad was like ''Ooooh Ariel I can totally see your undies!" Hahahaha, that would have been awkward!

Anyway, Joshua asked me out again last night. I tryed to let him down gently ya' know? But I think I might have come off as bitchy. God I hate having to turn guys down! It makes me feel like a horable person, but I'm just not into him that way. And I'm totally not looking for a relationship this summer. Summer flings are where it's at man. Who'd want to be totally involved when you can just play around and have fun ;) Besides, I'm to busy to stick with one guy in the summer. Boyfriends are fun, but it's more fun to just play the feild. Oh wow, that made me sound like a total slut didn't it? I really didn't mean it like that, I just mean, I'm not looking to fall in love is all. Hahaha.

I can't change a thing(but do I really want to?)

Going to a street festival today, woohoo! I actually have no clue what it's about, but whatever, I'll have fun any way.

So I started writing a song this morning, it sounds pretty fab so far, but I can't figure out what to write next, nothing sounds good. So I think I'm just going to leave it alone for now and see if it still sounds good in the morning. If it does then I'll get down to writing some music to go with it. It's gonna' be weird writing music for lyrics on my own, ususally I write the lyrics and the chorus and one of my band mates does the rest. But they are looooooong gone now, I'm not in contact with any of them, they haven't even done any shows since we split up. Ah well, I s'pose I really need to do it eh? I don't want to be dependant on other people for music. Or any thing else for that matter.

Rachel seems to have disapeired. She's deleted her myspace, she hasen't been on AIM for like two weeks, and she never called me like she said she would. I wish I knew why. But I can't even call her to try 'n find out, I don't have her number. Poop.

Speeking of disapeiring friends, I haven't talked to Kayla since before easter. Which fucking sucks. I miss her. She was cool, never juging people the way my other friends do. I loved that about her. She was quirky too, we always had a good time. Oh well, some times friends leave you. And you can't change a thing.

pass out potatoe

I think my eyes are light sensitive. Bright sun light gives me a headache, and then I start feeling dizy. It really sucks.

punch drunk luuurve

I'm not feeling so hott today. Actually I was feeling fine when I was hanging out with Andrew, Jessica, Katlyn, and Jerimiah, but now I feel sick, and depressed. Just one of those days I guess.

There's this one guy(I'm not going to put his name here because he said that he reads my blog) that I used to really like, and I flirted with him, and made it pretty obvious. But today I realized, I don't really like him that much. Or maybe I did, and my feelings have changed? But you'd think that would be a gradual thing wouldn't you? Not like, one day you're head over heals(I never really got that saying before) and the next you couldn't care less. Fuck. I'd like to say that it's just PMS or some thing, but I know it's not. I don't think I'm really into relationships right now. Not that I want to be all sluty and just sleep with every one, I don't feel like doing that either. I just want to...be. I just want to goof off with my friends. I want to go climb trees. I want to dance. I want to sweat. I want to not care about any thing.

I think I'm just in a bad mood right now. I'm gonna' go on a bike ride and see if I feel any better later.

pedo police

I got home from my guitar lesson late and missed Mike's call :( I thought about calling him back(since his number is on my caller ID) but it's already 3:30ish and he's 'prolly on his way to work or some thing.(bleh) Oh sadness, I s'pose I'll have to talk to him later instead :(

I had the weirdest dream this morning. In it, Mad and I were dressed as guys, it was midnight, and we were walking to Ben's house. Sudenly, a police oficer pulles up next to us and askes what we're doing. I go over and take off my hat,(the transformation is astounding, with the hat I look like a guy, with out it I look supper girly!) and the dude goes "How old are you...ladies?" (lmao, it was so funny the way he said it, you'd have to have been there though, oh wait, you couldn't it was a dream, never mind!) So we stand there and tell the guy exacty what we're doing(actually I told him, I think Mad was pissed off at me for blowing our cover and telling a cop what we were doing) and he's like "Well I'm headed up that way and it's dangerous to be out this late at night, even if you are dressed like men, so why don't you hop in the back and I'll give you a ride." So we did, I got to sit in the front(HA-HA, sorry Mad, I think he liked me better) and I was talking to him the whole time, and when he droped us off at Ben's house(this was so weird) HE ASKED FOR MY NUMBER! That's when I woke up.(I think it was because I was so suprised!) Anyway, that made me crack up.(Seriously, I opened my eyes, looked around at my room, and started laughing like an insane person) I wonder what inspired that dream!

tip-top tank-top

Last night, I was in such a deep sleep, I swear to god, I was dead to the world. Nothing could have made me wake up this morning. It was great though, falling asleep and staying asleep for hours is always a fun thing. I feel great now too, totally refreshed. It's a good thing too, yesterday I was so fucking tired, I almost fell asleep at grandma's house. Haha.

Today is a good day, all sunny and nice, I feel soo cheerful and...Ariel! I don't really have any plans for today either, so I can stay home and be lazy if I wish. I'll 'prolly take Aaron to the park around 4 or 5 though, I feel like being active, not siting around all day.

Oh bugger, it's only a couple weeks 'till june isnt it? I've been looking forward to summer so much, I forgot to get ready for it! I still need to buy a bikini and a couple skirts, maybe some tank tops too. I still need a job. Damn it, I don't want to work during summer! Spring, fall, winter, I don't care, but summer is when I'm free. Summer is when I can leave the house at 9 am and not go back untill 9 pm and no one cares! I can just spend the whole day with my friends, no plans, no worries. Summer is when I can forget about the future for a while, when I can just chill out and enjoy the moment I'm in. If I get a job I'll have to spend time inside. Oh poo, I need the money though.

I'm gonna' go out side, draw on the sidewalk or some thing.